OCD and Summer Semester

Okay, okay, so I’ve been slacking with the updates a bit.  What can I say?  When your days are all the same, there’s just nothing to say.  I guess that’s just how the summer semester is.

So what’s been happening lately…well, work is so terribly slow.  (I think our record is 23 people one night?)  It’s nice.  We sit and play cards every day.  Me, Jasper, Steve, Tyler, and Chrissy.  I take my break whenever I want (every one of us is required to take a thirty-minute break).  Like last night, for example, I sat out in the front eating and playing cards for an hour, then clocked out, went back to work, clocked back in, and took a break again.  Haha.  It’s weird.  But the management is hardly ever there…it’s just…great.  And we have such great nicknames; the new supervisor is named, “Oldie McFrenchspy”, because he’s 1. old, 2. French, and 3. a spy for Big Brother.  He’s nice, though, which is the ironic thing about it.  We all like him.  We just like his nickname, too.

It won’t stay like this for long.  June is supposed to be hell, with all the little kids and summer camps and everything going on.  It’s supposed to be worse than the regular school year.

Dishwasher Daniel has annoyed us all, because he dislikes our movie plans (and he just always annoys me).  Well, *sticks out tongue* that’s what I think about that.  We like our ideas.

I have also discovered that I have OCD.  I mean, I always knew I had it to a degree, but Maggie and Steve have made me more aware of it.  The night I first started driving Steve home, he was helping me clean up, and I was wiping down the things the way I always do, 10-15 times each, and he said, “Geez, think they’re clean enough yet!?” and Maggie said, “Oh, she can’t do it just once.”  Steve said, “What are you, OCD or something?”  And Maggie said, in all seriousness and as though she is my doctor and has considered this common knowledge forever, “Yeah.  She is–I’ve known this since the first night I ever worked with her.  She is.”

Then I realized that Maggie does constantly point out how I can never stop messing with the food…never.  I’m always stirring it, making sure there’s no film on top of the gravy or sauce, making sure everything is totally flat…and the way I wipe down the things, and the sneezeguards…Tinny always got done way before me, and I’d be wiping…and wiping….

I mean, I’m not seriously afflicted, but I’ll admit I have it to a minor degree (I’ve always admitted it, I just never noticed it was so bad until Maggie and Steve were joking about it).  Huh.  Interesting.

Finally bothered to get the updated perfume list into some semblance of alphabetical order:

  • Calvin Klein Euphoria – I didn’t dislike this scent and it lasted for a good long while.  However, I just got the impression that something about it was too old for me.
  • Calvin Klein Deep Euphoria – I wasn’t a fan of the initial smell, but then by the time I remembered to smell it again maybe an hour later, it had already worn off, so I’m just going to scrap this one.
  • Calvin Klein Reveal – I liked this one a lot.  It was woodsy and warm, with pepper kind of shining through.  It has great lasting power, too!  I still had hints of it at the end of the night.
  • Chanel Chance
  • Chanel Coco Mademoiselle – This one is making the finalists list.  It strikes me as a good spring smell.  I had visions of lying in soft grass, staring at puffy white clouds and feeling a light breeze on my face.  I imagined being at a Renaissance Faire.  It lasted most of the day.  Also, I’d be lying if I said the marketing of smelling like the British Natalie Portman wasn’t working on me somewhat.
  • Chanel Eau Tendre – It was a pleasing smell, but I guess I would just say it was nothing special to me.  Not bad, but I’ve tried other things that stood out to me a lot more.  Long-lasting, though.
  • Coach – Ever-so-slightly too sweet for me.  Must be the raspberries.  It wasn’t overbearing, but with the size of the list I’m trying to narrow down, even slightly too sweet is too much.
  • Dior Poison Girl – Awful!  It immediately smelled as though I had drenched myself in vanilla, which, despite enjoying the flavor of, have always detested the scent of for being too sickeningly sweet.  It was fairly long-lasting, too.
  • Dior J’Adore – I thought I liked the smell, but apparently ylang-ylang doesn’t work with my body chemistry somehow.  I had the same issue with Victoria’s Endless Love–I loved the scent, but on me it kind of smells like piss.  I mean, literally, I got hints of something urine-y mixed with something chemical-y.
  • Dior J’Adore Eau Lumiere – This was pretty long-lasting for an EDT, and not unpleasant.  I can’t say there was anything particularly special about it, though.  No oomph.  So I guess it’s coming off the list.
  • Dior Miss Dior
  • Dior Miss Dior Blooming Bouquet – When I closed my eyes and smelled this one for the first time, I had instant mental images of white tablecloths, crystal chandeliers, a tuxedoed live band, and the word “elegant”.  Unfortunately, this scent does not appear to be available in an EDP and did not last very long.  It lasted longer than either of the Ralph Lauren scents, however.  Because of that alone it’ll have to be a no.  If it’s ever available in an EDP I might just scoop it up.
  • Elizabeth Arden Untold
  • Elizabeth Arden Untold Absolu
  • Jimmy Choo Illicit – Another one I liked but that didn’t last long enough for me to give it another shot.
  • Juicy Couture Gold Couture – This barely lasted at all and just really wasn’t my thing.
  • Jo Malone London Mimosa & Cardamom
  • Jo Malone Nectarine Blossom & Honey – Great fresh scent for summer!  I actually liked how it smelled, but I felt like somehow it wasn’t me.
  • Lancome La Vie Est Belle – Another finalist.  I believe this lasted longer than any other scent I’ve tried so far.  I can’t describe what I like about it, but I can’t get enough of it.
  • Marc Jacobs Decadence
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy – Too powdery-fresh, which is great in an antiperspirant but not at all what I want in a perfume.  Also not long-lasting.
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy Dream – Same issues as Daisy.
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy Eau So Fresh – I pretty much dislike all the Marc Jacobs Daisy line for the same reasons.
  • Michael Kors 24K Brilliant Gold
  • Michael Kors Glam Jasmine
  • Michael Kors Sexy Amber – No, I don’t like this at all.  I thought I did before but it smells awful on me!  Medium lasting power.
  • Michael Kors Sexy Rio De Janeiro – Disgustingly sweet when I first put it on, but I grew fond of it throughout the day.  A gentle scent, good for summer.  Doesn’t last very long, though.  For that reason and because I need to be more selective, it’s coming off the list.
  • Modern Muse Le Rouge
  • My Burberry
  • Paco Rabanne Olympea – This is probably the longest-lasting sample I’ve tried so far, and fortunately I liked it.  It had an unusual salty scent and was almost, but not quite, masculine.  Very earthy, which I seem to dig.
  • Paco Rabanne Olympea Intense – Hated it.  Also long-lasting, but it had a disgusting vanilla scent, mixed with pepper.
  • Ralph Lauren Romance – I actually really liked the scent, but it only lasted for about an hour.  Maybe the concentration was just too low?  But whatever the problem was, I can’t choose as a signature scent something that I’m going to have to reapply several times throughout the day.  That’s not simple enough for me.
  • Ralph Lauren Midnight Romance – Not a fan.  It was too sickeningly sweet and also only lasted around an hour (thank goodness).
  • Thierry Mugler Alien – I thought I would like this one seeing as it was made up of pretty much all things I enjoy, but maybe I just didn’t like the way they went together?  Something about it was too strong and off-putting, and the thought that crossed my mind was that it was just too “adult” for me somehow.  Long-lasting, though.  I won’t be trying it again, for sure.
  • Thierry Mugler Angel – I couldn’t stand it.  It wasn’t that it smelled bad, but it smelled like something sweet I would like to eat, like a cookie.  I don’t want to smell like a cookie.
  • Tory Burch Love Relentlessly – It wasn’t a bad smell but I didn’t feel like there was anything really special about it.
  • Versace Bright Crystal – The very first thing I thought was that it reminded me of Egypt, which was a weird thought to have considering I’ve never been there; how could a scent remind me of it?  But throughout the day the thought I kept having was that it was very me somehow, which is exactly what a scent should be.  A good springtime scent.  It was also very long-lasting, so that’s a plus.
  • Victoria’s Secret Endless Love – I actually adore this scent.  It smells absolutely enchanting right out of the bottle.  But for some reason, it just doesn’t smell good on me.  So I have to give it a pass.
  • Vince Camuto Capri – I really liked this one.  It was calming and lasted most of the day.  It described itself as a “cool breeze off the Mediterranean Sea”, and I felt like I could visualize that when I smelled it.
  • Viktor & Rolf Flowerbomb – I actually liked everything about this one.
  • Yves Saint Laurent Black Opium
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Spring Break Photos

I showed off my “spring break photos” at work tonight to Dennis (and everyone else around, but it was only supposed to be for Dennis).  These were made up of eight photos:  three from a party I went to where I wore a cute dress, two random selfies with my cardboard Han Solo cutout, and three of “Erik”—one of him by himself, and two with Emmy Rossum.  I didn’t really know what order they were in; just mixed up, so as to blend together more.

I handed them to Dennis.  He’d already seen the pic of Erik by himself, so he knew what he looked like already.  Then he turned to the next pic.

“That’s not you!” he said.  Oh, shit, I thought.

More loudly, he waved it in front of my face, and said, “That’s not you!”

What I saw made me laugh out loud.  It was me—one of the pics from the party, the selfie in the dress.

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Then he turned to the next one.  I still didn’t know what he was looking at.  He said, “Oh, now you’re just cropping heads!”

It was one of the Han pictures.  Dennis has seen my room; he knows Han is in there!  What the heck?

I said, “No, no, no; that’s just the guy who lives in my room!”

Then he turned to the next one—one of the Erik ones.  “That’s not you!  Who is that!?”

Then he started calling other people, and pretty soon, he, Greg, Chrissi, and Tiffany were all gathered around, debating which ones were me and which weren’t.  They were all like, “Turn this way!” and “Okay, let me see you from this angle!” while comparing minute details.

By the time the evening was over, from what I could figure out, they “knew” that the one of my by myself from the party and one of “Erik” and Emmy Rossum were the same person (perhaps my mother, or some 40-year-old).  They “knew” that the two of me with Han were cropped.  And they weren’t quite sure about the other one of Emmy Rossum and Erik or the other two of me at the party…either the 40-year-old, or me dressing up like her…something like that.  Interesting.  Here’s the one that convinced them:

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It was utter confusion.  Tinny and I found it difficult to hold straight faces through all of this.  I’d expected to have to defend the pictures of Emmy Rossum as being me; I hadn’t expected to have to defend the pictures of myself as being me.  Anyway, I figured someone was certain to recognize either Emmy or the very old pictures of Gerry Butler and it would all be over, but…surprise!  For the moment I still have a fake boyfriend.

I feel like Milo’s girlfriend (Mo) is laughing at me, because I love him but she has him.  I have no reason to think this, I guess; I just…I don’t know.  She has to be aware I have some feelings for him.  Doesn’t she? If you were constantly going to see your boyfriend at his house, where someone else who loves him also happened to live, wouldn’t you feel smug, at least?

I have to stop talking about this.  I made a freaking vow!  I wasn’t supposed to complain.  I’m supposed to be mature.  I’m supposed to be, but I’m just…not.  So I was supposed to act like I am.  Can’t I even do that!?  No…I have to leave my house every Friday and hide out in different locations around town, so I don’t have to sit here while he’s in his room with his girlfriend.

Okay, I’m headed to the UCF website to figure out what all I need to send there, and to make a list.

Updated perfume list:

  • Versace Bright Crystal
  • Calvin Klein Euphoria
  • Calvin Klein Reveal – I liked this one a lot.  It was woodsy and warm, with pepper kind of shining through.  It has great lasting power, too!  I still had hints of it at the end of the night.
  • Lancome La Vie Est Belle – Another finalist.  I believe this lasted longer than any other scent I’ve tried so far.  I can’t describe what I like about it, but I can’t get enough of it.
  • Jo Malone London Mimosa & Cardamom
  • Michael Kors Sexy Amber – No, I don’t like this at all.  I thought I did but it smells awful on me!  Medium lasting power.
  • Michael Kors 24K Brilliant Gold
  • Michael Kors Glam Jasmine
  • Michael Kors Sexy Rio De Janeiro – Disgustingly sweet when I first put it on, but I grew fond of it throughout the day.  A gentle scent, good for summer.  Doesn’t last very long, though.  For that reason and because I need to be more selective, it’s coming off the list.
  • Marc Jacobs Decadence
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy Dream
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy Eau So Fresh
  • Miss Dior Blooming Bouquet – When I closed my eyes and smelled this one for the first time, I had instant mental images of white tablecloths, crystal chandeliers, a tuxedoed live band, and the word “elegant”.  Unfortunately, this scent does not appear to be available in an EDP and did not last very long.  It lasted longer than either of the Ralph Lauren scents, however.
  • Dior Poison Girl – Awful!  It immediately smelled as though I had drenched myself in vanilla, which, despite enjoying the flavor of, have always detested the scent of for being too sickeningly sweet.  It was fairly long-lasting, too.
  • Dior J’Adore – I thought I liked the smell, but apparently ylang-ylang doesn’t work with my body chemistry somehow.  I had the same issue with Victoria’s Endless Love–I loved the scent, but on me it kind of smells like piss.  I mean, literally, I got hints of something urine-y mixed with something chemical-y.
  • Dior J’Adore Eau Lumiere – This was pretty long-lasting for an EDT, and not unpleasant.  I can’t say there was anything particularly special about it, though.  No oomph.
  • Miss Dior
  • Coach – Ever-so-slightly too sweet for me.  Must be the raspberries.  It wasn’t overbearing, but with the size of the list I’m trying to narrow down, even slightly too sweet is too much.
  • Chanel Chance
  • Chanel Coco Mademoiselle – This one is making the finalists list.  It strikes me as a good spring smell.  I had visions of lying in soft grass, staring at puffy white clouds and feeling a light breeze on my face.  I imagined being at a Renaissance Faire.  It lasted most of the day.  Also, I’d be lying if I said the marketing of smelling like the British Natalie Portman wasn’t working on me somewhat.
  • Chanel Eau Tendre – It was a pleasing smell, but I guess I would just say it was nothing special to me.  Not bad, but I’ve tried other things that stood out to me a lot more.  Long-lasting, though.
  • My Burberry
  • Paco Rabanne Olympea – This is probably the longest-lasting sample I’ve tried so far, and fortunately I liked it.  It had an unusual salty scent and was almost, but not quite, masculine.  Very earthy, which I seem to dig.
  • Paco Rabanne Olympea Intense – Hated it.  Also long-lasting, but it had a disgusting vanilla scent, mixed with pepper.
  • Yves Saint Laurent Black Opium
  • Elizabeth Arden Untold
  • Elizabeth Arden Untold Absolu
  • Modern Muse Le Rouge
  • Vince Camuto Capri – I really liked this one.  It was calming and lasted most of the day.  It described itself as a “cool breeze off the Mediterranean Sea”, and I felt like I could visualize that when I smelled it.
  • Thierry Mugler Alien – I thought I would like this one seeing as it was made up of pretty much all things I enjoy, but maybe I just didn’t like the way they went together?  Something about it was too strong and off-putting, and the thought that crossed my mind was that it was just too “adult” for me somehow.  Long-lasting, though.  I won’t be trying it again, for sure.
  • Thierry Mugler Angel – I couldn’t stand it.  It wasn’t that it smelled bad, but it smelled like something sweet I would like to eat, like a cookie.  I don’t want to smell like a cookie.
  • Ralph Lauren Romance – I actually really liked the scent, but it only lasted for about an hour.  Maybe the concentration was just too low?  But whatever the problem was, I can’t choose as a signature scent something that I’m going to have to reapply several times throughout the day.  That’s not simple enough for me.
  • Ralph Lauren Midnight Romance – Not a fan.  It was too sickeningly sweet and also only lasted around an hour (thank goodness).
  • Jimmy Choo Illicit – Another one I liked but that didn’t last long enough for me to give it another shot.
  • Victoria’s Secret Endless Love – I actually adore this scent.  It smells absolutely enchanting right out of the bottle.  But for some reason, it just doesn’t smell good on me.  So I have to give it a pass.
  • Juicy Couture Gold Couture – This barely lasted at all and just really wasn’t my thing.

All In One Morning: Psychobrat, Oz, Racism, Family Feuds, and Cops

Oh, boy.  Did I have an exciting morning, full of typical, pure family entertainment.

My family, that is.  That means something catastrophic involving Psychobrat, her boyfriend (Oz), my dad, racism, family feuds, and of course, the cops!

It all started just before Oz arrived.  We were all sitting around here in the living room, I doing homework, everyone else doing whatever (I wasn’t paying much attention to the world outside of homework).  And then the doorbell rang.  It was a woman who apparently lived down the street.

Seeing that the woman was a POC, and that Psychobrat was in the room, I knew this was going to be good.  I immediately turned off my interview, which was playing into my headphones, and acted like I wasn’t paying attention, while taking in the whole thing.

The exchange between my father and the woman at the door was about Oz himself, who pulled up on the street next to our house and just sat there.  Apparently he had taken the circle that our house sits on at much too quickly a pace and had nearly hit her.  The first thing she said was, “Is that your son in the blue truck?”  My dad told her he wasn’t, and she explained the situation, and he said he would talk to Oz, which didn’t seem to quite cut it.  So he asked her what she would like him to do, and she responded with, “I should have gotten my husband to come and talk to you.  This is just unacceptable,” and started walking away.  He stood there and was just calling after her, “What do you want me to do?  He isn’t my son,” as she walked up behind his truck and wrote down his license plate number.  Then she continued walking away and he was just calling, “What do you want me to do?  Ma’am?  What is your name?  Where do you live?” because, as she had explained that she intended to call the cops and file a report, he wanted to know who she was.  She didn’t answer him and just went home.

Obviously, the woman was a complete bitch.  But what ensued as soon as Oz walked in the door and explained his side of the story (that he had taken the curve at 15 MPH and that she had just been sitting there in the middle of the road) was a bitchfest among my dad and Psychobrat about black people as a whole.

I am perfectly aware how unwise it is to argue with either my dad or Psychobrat, so normally I don’t bother.  This morning, I just couldn’t take it.  After about 5 minutes of, “They all do this and I can’t stand how they all do that,” and I won’t go into detail about it…but I snapped.  I just started yelling at them about how it isn’t all of them, that the two of them are just racist, and the definition of “prejudice”, and that they make me sick, and yada yada yada.  My mom tried to stand up for me in there, making it clear that she was on my side, reiterating the definitions of generalization and hatred, and Psychobrat started denying that she had said anything about “all black people”, which was ludicrous, as she’d just been bitching about them a few minutes before.

After I had had my say, I realized what a mistake it was.  Of course, I was the one in the wrong.  There’s nothing indecent about hating a group of people, or of categorizing them all into a group and saying that because statistics say this and because certain ones do that, that they’re all the same.  No; in the opinions of my sister and my dad, I’m the dumbass.  I announced that I wanted nothing more to do with the conversation and went back to my homework, still catching snippets here and there.

At one point, Psychobrat suggested that she and Oz move to Australia, where there were no black people.

My mom interrupted with, “There are Aborigines in Australia [dumbass].” (She didn’t say, “dumbass,” but I know she had to have been thinking it.)

Psychobrat responded to that by informing us all that Aborigines are not black people.  At this point, I blew my cover by snickering quite loudly.

My mom took Psychobrat and Oz out shopping, and I, in the midst of my homework, was bombarded with questions and comments from my dad.  Finally, I just yelled at him, “I already told you I don’t want to have this conversation!  I am in the middle of homework that is going to take me hours and I’m sorry I said anything!  Next time, I won’t!  I’m an idiot for ever bothering to open my mouth around you!”

I love how he responded to this with, “That’s right,” and a triumphant little laugh.

The doorbell rings, and it’s the cops.  My dad goes outside to talk to them for a while, and they file their report, and then he takes my brother shopping.  And it’s just Milo and me home (Milo has emerged from his bedroom, now that he knows the initial storm is over.)  I tell Milo the whole story, and we have a good laugh about it, so I calm down some.

Then the doorbell rings again.  I knew before opening it that it was the woman’s husband.

I didn’t know what to do with the stupid dog, so I picked it up and put it in the kitchen, hoping it would get the idea not to go and attack whoever was on the other side of the door.  It didn’t (stupid Falkor).  So I pushed it out of the way, opened the door a little wider, and stepped outside.

The guy said, “I need to speak to the boy who drives the blue pickup truck.”

I said, “He’s not here right now.”

He said, “Is he your brother?”

“No,” I said.  My dad had explained this to his wife.  He’s no relation to us.  Apparently, they hadn’t believed us.  I chose not to be particularly friendly with this man.

“So where is he now?” he said.

“He’s out with my parents.”

Milo, at this moment, was on the phone in the kitchen.  The guy looked in the window and said, “That’s him, isn’t it?  Doesn’t he drive the blue pickup truck?”

“No,” I said coolly.  “He drives a different car.”

“Well, do you know when he’ll be back?”

“No,” I said.

“Well, you tell him when he gets back that I’ll be coming back to talk to him.”

“Okay.  Have a nice day,” I said.

He walked away without a word.

More on this after the husband comes back.

Updated perfume list:

  • Versace Bright Crystal
  • Calvin Klein Euphoria
  • Calvin Klein Reveal – I liked this one a lot.  It was woodsy and warm, with pepper kind of shining through.  It has great lasting power, too!  I still had hints of it at the end of the night.
  • Lancome La Vie Est Belle – Another finalist.  I believe this lasted longer than any other scent I’ve tried so far.  I can’t describe what I like about it, but I can’t get enough of it.
  • Jo Malone London Mimosa & Cardamom
  • Michael Kors Sexy Amber – No, I don’t like this at all.  I thought I did but it smells awful on me!  Medium lasting power.
  • Michael Kors 24K Brilliant Gold
  • Michael Kors Glam Jasmine
  • Michael Kors Sexy Rio De Janeiro – Disgustingly sweet when I first put it on, but I grew fond of it throughout the day.  A gentle scent, good for summer.  Doesn’t last very long, though.  For that reason and because I need to be more selective, it’s coming off the list.
  • Marc Jacobs Decadence
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy Dream
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy Eau So Fresh
  • Miss Dior Blooming Bouquet – When I closed my eyes and smelled this one for the first time, I had instant mental images of white tablecloths, crystal chandeliers, a tuxedoed live band, and the word “elegant”.  Unfortunately, this scent does not appear to be available in an EDP and did not last very long.  It lasted longer than either of the Ralph Lauren scents, however.
  • Dior Poison Girl – Awful!  It immediately smelled as though I had drenched myself in vanilla, which, despite enjoying the flavor of, have always detested the scent of for being too sickeningly sweet.  It was fairly long-lasting, too.
  • Miss Dior Eau de Toilette
  • Miss Dior Eau de Parfum
  • Chanel Chance
  • Chanel Coco Mademoiselle – This one is making the finalists list.  It strikes me as a good spring smell.  I had visions of lying in soft grass, staring at puffy white clouds and feeling a light breeze on my face.  I imagined being at a Renaissance Faire.  It lasted most of the day.  Also, I’d be lying if I said the marketing of smelling like the British Natalie Portman wasn’t working on me somewhat.
  • Chanel Eau Tendre – It was a pleasing smell, but I guess I would just say it was nothing special to me.  Not bad, but I’ve tried other things that stood out to me a lot more.  Long-lasting, though.
  • My Burberry
  • Paco Rabanne Olympea – This is probably the longest-lasting sample I’ve tried so far, and fortunately I liked it.  It had an unusual salty scent and was almost, but not quite, masculine.  Very earthy, which I seem to dig.
  • Paco Rabanne Olympea Intense – Hated it.  Also long-lasting, but it had a disgusting vanilla scent, mixed with pepper.
  • Yves Saint Laurent Black Opium
  • Elizabeth Arden Untold
  • Elizabeth Arden Untold Absolu
  • Modern Muse Le Rouge
  • Vince Camuto Capri – I really liked this one.  It was calming and lasted most of the day.  It described itself as a “cool breeze off the Mediterranean Sea”, and I felt like I could visualize that when I smelled it.
  • Thierry Mugler Alien – I thought I would like this one seeing as it was made up of pretty much all things I enjoy, but maybe I just didn’t like the way they went together?  Something about it was too strong and off-putting, and the thought that crossed my mind was that it was just too “adult” for me somehow.  Long-lasting, though.  I won’t be trying it again, for sure.
  • Thierry Mugler Angel – I couldn’t stand it.  It wasn’t that it smelled bad, but it smelled like something sweet I would like to eat, like a cookie.  I don’t want to smell like a cookie.
  • Ralph Lauren Romance – I actually really liked the scent, but it only lasted for about an hour.  Maybe the concentration was just too low?  But whatever the problem was, I can’t choose as a signature scent something that I’m going to have to reapply several times throughout the day.  That’s not simple enough for me.
  • Ralph Lauren Midnight Romance – Not a fan.  It was too sickeningly sweet and also only lasted around an hour (thank goodness).
  • Jimmy Choo Illicit – Another one I liked but that didn’t last long enough for me to give it another shot.
  • Victoria’s Secret Endless Love – I actually adore this scent.  It smells absolutely enchanting right out of the bottle.  But for some reason, it just doesn’t smell good on me.  So I have to give it a pass.
  • Juicy Couture Gold Couture – This barely lasted at all and just really wasn’t my thing.

I Survived the Ides of March and Didn’t Get a T-Shirt

Well, everything went well (for me) this Ides of March—in fact, better than expected.  (Perhaps because I wore the Crucifix and put the chapstick in my pocket.  I was superstitiously under the protection of Jesus and Paul McCartney.)  Milo returned home from Orlando, and based on the stories he told me, I couldn’t gather that Mo had gone with him.

And he gave me my birthday present, a Kermit the Frog model with Indiana Jones clothes.  It’s great.  It’s so great.

I’ve been playing PotO songs on the piano that I hardly ever play (namely the ones in the end of the book).  I discovered that “Masquerade”, despite its intimidating appearance, is actually quite easy, and that “Point of No Return”, with its crazy, unorthodox chords made up of double sharps and flats, is extremely difficult.  I played it through…very slowly…but it was hard.

I have been searching for the perfect picture of Erik to just happen to carry into work with me someday soon.  That’ll be fun.  Of course, there’s plenty I do not yet know about him, as I was explaining to Katie and Tinny earlier, so if anyone has any input, I’m all ears.  For example, I have no idea where I’m supposed to have met him.  I need to figure out what the American equivalent is of 20,000 francs (adjusted for inflation), because that’s how much he makes each month (doing…something…?).  I figured, my last fake boyfriend was rich, so this one can be, too.  Even though he is not technically my boyfriend.  No; he’s obsessed with me, he’s in love with me, but I see other guys, which infuriates him, and kinda frightens me, because I almost suspect sometimes that he might kill another guy if he knew that I was in love with him…almost.  (All mention of Milo curiously stays out of conversations about Erik; it could be tricky to explain why Erik has not killed Milo, or even attempted it.)  And although he has a dangerous temper, he’s generally very nice to me, and (I think) is coming over to make me breakfast tomorrow.  Or maybe I’ll save that for some Friday morning.  Anyway, if anybody else has ideas, let’s hear them.  Sigh…this is what was hardest about the break-ups with Cross and Dante, don’t you think, Cort?  We had to stop making up stories about them.

Thursday morning, I’m going downtown to meet a teacher from FSCJ for an interview.  I’m doing a story on her for my journalism class, because she recently had a novel published.  I’ve been e-mailing her back and forth, and she seems really cool.  She’s young (early 30s) and has a great sense of humor, and she almost reminds me of JKR, probably mostly because of how young she is.  I’m very excited (and also, for some reason, a trifle nervous) to meet her.  It should be fun.

Updated perfume list:

  • Versace Bright Crystal
  • Calvin Klein Euphoria
  • Calvin Klein Reveal – I liked this one a lot.  It was woodsy and warm, with pepper kind of shining through.  It has great lasting power, too!  I still had hints of it at the end of the night.
  • Lancome La Vie Est Belle
  • Jo Malone London Mimosa & Cardamom
  • Michael Kors Sexy Amber – No, I don’t like this at all.  I thought I did but it smells awful on me!  Medium lasting power.
  • Michael Kors 24K Brilliant Gold
  • Michael Kors Glam Jasmine
  • Michael Kors Sexy Rio De Janeiro – Disgustingly sweet when I first put it on, but I grew fond of it throughout the day.  A gentle scent, good for summer.  Doesn’t last very long, though.  For that reason and because I need to be more selective, it’s coming off the list.
  • Marc Jacobs Decadence
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy Dream
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy Eau So Fresh
  • Miss Dior Blooming Bouquet – When I closed my eyes and smelled this one for the first time, I had instant mental images of white tablecloths, crystal chandeliers, a tuxedoed live band, and the word “elegant”.  Unfortunately, this scent does not appear to be available in an EDP and did not last very long.  It lasted longer than either of the Ralph Lauren scents, however.
  • Dior Poison Girl – Awful!  It immediately smelled as though I had drenched myself in vanilla, which, despite enjoying the flavor of, have always detested the scent of for being too sickeningly sweet.  It was fairly long-lasting, too.
  • Miss Dior Eau de Toilette
  • Miss Dior Eau de Parfum
  • Chanel Chance
  • Chanel Coco Mademoiselle – This one is making the finalists list.  It strikes me as a good spring smell.  I had visions of lying in soft grass, staring at puffy white clouds and feeling a light breeze on my face.  I imagined being at a Renaissance Faire.  It lasted most of the day.  Also, I’d be lying if I said the marketing of smelling like the British Natalie Portman wasn’t working on me somewhat.
  • Chanel Eau Tendre – It was a pleasing smell, but I guess I would just say it was nothing special to me.  Not bad, but I’ve tried other things that stood out to me a lot more.  Long-lasting, though.
  • My Burberry
  • Paco Rabanne Olympea – This is probably the longest-lasting sample I’ve tried so far, and fortunately I liked it.  It had an unusual salty scent and was almost, but not quite, masculine.  Very earthy, which I seem to dig.
  • Paco Rabanne Olympea Intense – Hated it.  Also long-lasting, but it had a disgusting vanilla scent, mixed with pepper.
  • Yves Saint Laurent Black Opium
  • Elizabeth Arden Untold
  • Elizabeth Arden Untold Absolu
  • Modern Muse Le Rouge
  • Vince Camuto Capri – I really liked this one.  It was calming and lasted most of the day.  It described itself as a “cool breeze off the Mediterranean Sea”, and I felt like I could visualize that when I smelled it.
  • Thierry Mugler Alien – I thought I would like this one seeing as it was made up of pretty much all things I enjoy, but maybe I just didn’t like the way they went together?  Something about it was too strong and off-putting, and the thought that crossed my mind was that it was just too “adult” for me somehow.  Long-lasting, though.  I won’t be trying it again, for sure.
  • Thierry Mugler Angel – I couldn’t stand it.  It wasn’t that it smelled bad, but it smelled like something sweet I would like to eat, like a cookie.  I don’t want to smell like a cookie.
  • Ralph Lauren Romance – I actually really liked the scent, but it only lasted for about an hour.  Maybe the concentration was just too low?  But whatever the problem was, I can’t choose as a signature scent something that I’m going to have to reapply several times throughout the day.  That’s not simple enough for me.
  • Ralph Lauren Midnight Romance – Not a fan.  It was too sickeningly sweet and also only lasted around an hour (thank goodness).
  • Jimmy Choo Illicit – Another one I liked but that didn’t last long enough for me to give it another shot.
  • Victoria’s Secret Endless Love – I actually adore this scent.  It smells absolutely enchanting right out of the bottle.  But for some reason, it just doesn’t smell good on me.  So I have to give it a pass.
  • Juicy Couture Gold Couture – This barely lasted at all and just really wasn’t my thing.

A Fake Date With a Fake Boyfriend (and a Real Wendy)

So, I got stood up tonight…I think…I’m not really sure what the plan was, though, so I don’t know if it counts as being stood up…no idea, really.

What’s odd is that, the day I asked him if he wanted to hang out this weekend, I just had a feeling at that moment that something was going to happen and I wouldn’t see him this weekend at all.  I guess he’s that type of person.

There was an episode of Seinfeld when Elaine met this guy who knew Jerry, and then later the guy didn’t know who she was, like he had completely wiped her existence from his brain…and then he kept on doing this.  So she decided to date him, for the simple reason that he couldn’t remember who she was.

Elliot is like this.  I noticed, after he asked for my screen name last week, that when I talk to him online, he’ll repeat things, as though he has forgotten he’s said them—he’ll tell me some of the same things each day.  As though it’s the first time he’s said them.

One evening at work, after I had talked to him briefly online the night before, he said, “You didn’t get online last night!” and I said, “I talked to you online last night!”  I was seriously starting to think now that he had some sort of weird memory problems.  And then he said, “Yeah, but only for a couple of minutes,” which discredited that theory.

Because I had these misgivings from the moment I asked him, I made sure to remind him each day, just to make sure he remembered and was still planning to hang with me tonight…and each time he said yes, so…okay….  Each time he assured me he was coming, though, I still felt like something was off, like he would have forgotten by the next day.

A couple days ago, I told him that since the movie didn’t start until late, I’d be fine doing something beforehand, too, and he said that was great, because he’d gone ahead and cleared the entire day.  This surprised me, but I still had that nagging suspicion…so I kept reminding him of what time the movie started (9:40).

Last night, I asked him what he was doing today, because I knew I’d have the whole day to hang out, too, before the movie started.  I expected a response like, “Not much,” since the other day he had “cleared the whole day”…but what he said was, “Building a fence.”

I didn’t know whether “building a fence” was supposed to mean, “all day, so I can no longer go to the movie” or what…but I said, “Wow, that’s random,” and he said, “That’s me.”  I said, “Well, just contact me sometime before 9:40, okay?”

He said (verbatim), “9? :40 a.m.?”

I said, “No, 9:40 p.m.—that’s what time the movie starts!”

He said, “Oh, okay. Lol,” and went idle.

Still wouldn’t have been such a problem except that, while he had both my e-mail and phone number, I had no way to reach him but Messenger.

Anyway, bottom line is, he didn’t show, so I went with my friend Wendy.  And then we went out to dinner, where we made up a story of what I could have actually been doing at that time with Elliot (so I would have something to tell Milo later when he asked how my date went).  Apparently, Elliot and I watched the movie anyway, went on the nature trail, and just hung out in his room and watched TV.

When I arrived home, about 2:15, Milo was still up (which is odd—he’s never up this late), and he said, “So what have you been up to?”

I said, “Oh, I just hung out at UNF.”

He said, “Oh.”  He didn’t ask anything else, which was disappointing, and now I’m just going to have to drop hints (fake hints, as Wendy and I made everything up, anyway) later on.

I didn’t ask what he was doing.  I’m terrified to do that nowadays because it always involves her, and I don’t want to hear that stuff.  So I just let it hang there.

He said, “Well, g’night,” and went to bed.

He never asked what I did last night, either.  Apparently, he was too caught up in the mystique of her that he didn’t think about it.

Updated perfume list:

  • Versace Bright Crystal
  • Calvin Klein Euphoria
  • Calvin Klein Reveal – I liked this one a lot.  It was woodsy and warm, with pepper kind of shining through.  It has great lasting power, too!  I still had hints of it at the end of the night.
  • Lancome La Vie Est Belle
  • Jo Malone London Mimosa & Cardamom
  • Michael Kors Sexy Amber – No, I don’t like this at all.  I thought I did but it smells awful on me!  Medium lasting power.
  • Michael Kors 24K Brilliant Gold
  • Michael Kors Glam Jasmine
  • Michael Kors Sexy Rio De Janeiro – Disgustingly sweet when I first put it on, but I grew fond of it throughout the day.  A gentle scent, good for summer.  Doesn’t last very long, though.
  • Marc Jacobs Decadence
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy Dream
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy Eau So Fresh
  • Miss Dior Blooming Bouquet – When I closed my eyes and smelled this one for the first time, I had instant mental images of white tablecloths, crystal chandeliers, a tuxedoed live band, and the word “elegant”.  Unfortunately, this scent does not appear to be available in an EDP and did not last very long.  It lasted longer than either of the Ralph Lauren scents, however.
  • Miss Dior Eau de Toilette
  • Miss Dior Eau de Parfum
  • Chanel Chance
  • Chanel Coco Mademoiselle – This one is making the finalists list.  It strikes me as a good spring smell.  I had visions of lying in soft grass, staring at puffy white clouds and feeling a light breeze on my face.  I imagined being at a Renaissance Faire.  It lasted most of the day.  Also, I’d be lying if I said the marketing of smelling like the British Natalie Portman wasn’t working on me somewhat.
  • My Burberry
  • Yves Saint Laurent Black Opium
  • Elizabeth Arden Untold
  • Elizabeth Arden Untold Absolu
  • Modern Muse Le Rouge
  • Vince Camuto Capri – I really liked this one.  It was calming and lasted most of the day.  It described itself as a “cool breeze off the Mediterranean Sea”, and I felt like I could visualize that when I smelled it.
  • Thierry Mugler Alien – I thought I would like this one seeing as it was made up of pretty much all things I enjoy, but maybe I just didn’t like the way they went together?  Something about it was too strong and off-putting, and the thought that crossed my mind was that it was just too “adult” for me somehow.  Long-lasting, though.  I won’t be trying it again, for sure.
  • Thierry Mugler Angel – I couldn’t stand it.  It wasn’t that it smelled bad, but it smelled like something sweet I would like to eat, like a cookie.  I don’t want to smell like a cookie.
  • Ralph Lauren Romance – I actually really liked the scent, but it only lasted for about an hour.  Maybe the concentration was just too low?  But whatever the problem was, I can’t choose as a signature scent something that I’m going to have to reapply several times throughout the day.  That’s not simple enough for me.
  • Ralph Lauren Midnight Romance – Not a fan.  It was too sickeningly sweet and also only lasted around an hour (thank goodness).
  • Jimmy Choo Illicit – Another one I liked but that didn’t last long enough for me to give it another shot.
  • Victoria’s Secret Endless Love – I actually adore this scent.  It smells absolutely enchanting right out of the bottle.  But for some reason, it just doesn’t smell good on me.  So I have to give it a pass.
  • Juicy Couture Gold Couture – This barely lasted at all and just really wasn’t my thing.

Nature vs. Nurture and Complaints About the Movie

I feel like I’m floating in an abyss.  I don’t mean that in some sort of tragic, depressing, emo way…just that Brother has turned out all the lights in the living room, so the only thing I can see now is the monitor and a little bit of the desk.  If I glance away from the screen, it looks like there’s nothing there.

I watched the Les Miserables film—the 1998 one with Liam Neeson—and I hated it.  I knew that I would before I even rented it; why did I bother?  Well…I guess I just wanted to see Neeson and Rush, to see how they did…Claire Danes was a terrible Cosette—and where in the hell was Eponine!?  Neeson and Rush were each fantastic in their respective roles, but…too much was changed from the book.  I’m not talking about omitted—I don’t mind that so much, if it doesn’t change the story, and of course I knew they’d have to, because the movie was only twohours long…but actually changed; I hate that.

Although, based on the songs, and just from what I hear, I think I’ll like the musical.  That’s next on my viewing list.

I wrote this a few days ago when my history teacher brought up the whole “nature vs. nurture” thing, and my mind started wandering.  I never used to have a comment on this, because I couldn’t make up my mind; but in my psych class last year—and probably building up to that point, too—I reached a decision, which makes sense to me, and I don’t understand how I could ever not have felt this way.  So here’s my staunch nurturist view on it.

I don’t believe that people are born inherently “good” or “bad”; I believe that they are born human, and that they are shaped by life as they live it.  Nurture, not nature.  I can remember my psychology professor discussing this last semester, presenting each opposing viewpoint.  The nurture theory, he described, is about being born with a certain amount of “stuff” inside, and then making of that what you will as you go.  I suppose that “stuff” would be what some consider the soul, wouldn’t it?  I think that people, based on influences in their lives, are more inclined to act either good or bad, but that this is capable of change—always.  Life is about free will, choices, and learning.  It would seem, however, that once a person has leaned more to the good or the bad, that he would generally stay to that path from that point onward, unless faced with a dramatic, soul-changing event.

If one looks at plays, or novels, or films, and the people who stick in one’s mind the most as being the greatest, most lovable, most believable characters, those are the ones who are rounded out.  This is how we describe those characters who are capable of changing their entire lives around…people who can change how they perceive everything.  Jean Valjean does a major turnaround as a character in Les Miserables, and I adore him for this.  The honorable Inspector Javert, on the other hand, I hated from the beginning.  It wasn’t just because I knew that he would be stalking Valjean for the eternity that was 1,463 pages—it was because he was so flat.  Of course, the character was written to be hated…but if he had no other qualities, I mean.  In the end, of course, he changes…and this, for the first time, was when I looked at him with a new light.  I felt far more respect for him in these last moments of humility than in his entire career—and, indeed, life—of piousness.

When I look at my own soul, who I am, I find that most evidence points to this nurture theory, that I certainly am shaped by my experiences, and that I am not the same person at this moment of my life as I was at various other instances throughout.

That was all I wrote before time ran out.

Oh, I have an updated perfume list again:

  • Versace Bright Crystal
  • Calvin Klein Euphoria
  • Lancome La Vie Est Belle
  • Jo Malone London Mimosa & Cardamom
  • Michael Kors Sexy Amber
  • Michael Kors 24K Brilliant Gold
  • Michael Kors Glam Jasmine
  • Marc Jacobs Decadence
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy Dream
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy Eau So Fresh
  • Miss Dior Blooming Bouquet – When I closed my eyes and smelled this one for the first time, I had instant mental images of white tablecloths, crystal chandeliers, a tuxedoed live band, and the word “elegant”.  Unfortunately, this scent does not appear to be available in an EDP and did not last very long.  It lasted longer than either of the Ralph Lauren scents, however.
  • Miss Dior Eau de Toilette
  • Miss Dior Eau de Parfum
  • Chanel Chance
  • Chanel Coco Mademoiselle
  • My Burberry
  • Yves Saint Laurent Black Opium
  • Elizabeth Arden Untold
  • Elizabeth Arden Untold Absolu
  • Modern Muse Le Rouge
  • Vince Camuto Capri – I really liked this one.  It was calming and lasted most of the day.  It described itself as a “cool breeze off the Mediterranean Sea”, and I felt like I could visualize that when I smelled it.
  • Thierry Mugler Alien – I thought I would like this one seeing as it was made up of pretty much all things I enjoy, but maybe I just didn’t like the way they went together?  Something about it was too strong and off-putting, and the thought that crossed my mind was that it was just too “adult” for me somehow.  Long-lasting, though.  I won’t be trying it again, for sure.
  • Thierry Mugler Alien – I couldn’t stand it.  It wasn’t that it smelled bad, but it smelled like something sweet I would like to eat, like a cookie.  I don’t want to smell like a cookie.
  • Ralph Lauren Romance – I actually really liked the scent, but it only lasted for about an hour.  Maybe the concentration was just too low?  But whatever the problem was, I can’t choose as a signature scent something that I’m going to have to reapply several times throughout the day.  That’s not simple enough for me.
  • Ralph Lauren Midnight Romance – Not a fan.  It was too sickeningly sweet and also only lasted around an hour (thank goodness).
  • Jimmy Choo Illicit – Another one I liked but that didn’t last long enough for me to give it another shot.
  • Victoria’s Secret Endless Love – I actually adore this scent.  It smells absolutely enchanting right out of the bottle.  But for some reason, it just doesn’t smell good on me.  So I have to give it a pass.

Scentsitive

I managed to locate another perfume sample in my bathroom, so here’s another update to my list:

  • Calvin Klein Euphoria
  • Versace Bright Crystal
  • Lancome La Vie Est Belle
  • Jo Malone London Mimosa & Cardamom
  • Michael Kors Sexy Amber
  • Michael Kors 24K Brilliant Gold
  • Michael Kors Glam Jasmine
  • Marc Jacobs Decadence
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy Dream
  • Marc Jacobs Daisy Eau So Fresh
  • Miss Dior Blooming Bouquet – When I closed my eyes and smelled this one for the first time, I had instant mental images of white tablecloths, crystal chandeliers, a tuxedoed live band, and the word “elegant”.  Unfortunately, this scent does not appear to be available in an EDP and did not last very long.  It lasted longer than either of the Ralph Lauren scents, however.
  • Miss Dior Eau de Toilette
  • Miss Dior Eau de Parfum
  • Chanel Chance
  • Chanel Coco Mademoiselle
  • My Burberry
  • Yves Saint Laurent Black Opium
  • Elizabeth Arden Untold
  • Elizabeth Arden Untold Absolu
  • Modern Muse Le Rouge
  • Vince Camuto Capri – I really liked this one.  It was calming and lasted most of the day.  It described itself as a “cool breeze off the Mediterranean Sea”, and I felt like I could visualize that when I smelled it.
  • Thierry Mugler Alien – I thought I would like this one seeing as it was made up of pretty much all things I enjoy, but maybe I just didn’t like the way they went together?  Something about it was too strong and off-putting, and the thought that crossed my mind was that it was just too “adult” for me somehow.  Long-lasting, though.  I won’t be trying it again, for sure.
  • Ralph Lauren Romance – I actually really liked the scent, but it only lasted for about an hour.  Maybe the concentration was just too low?  But whatever the problem was, I can’t choose as a signature scent something that I’m going to have to reapply several times throughout the day.  That’s not simple enough for me.
  • Ralph Lauren Midnight Romance – Not a fan.  It was too sickeningly sweet and also only lasted around an hour (thank goodness).
  • Jimmy Choo Illicit – Another one I liked but that didn’t last long enough for me to give it another shot.
  • Viva by Fergie – The very first thing I thought when I put this on was that it was just all wrong somehow.  Later in the day I realized that it smelled like a hot summer day mixed with the tang of dried sweat–mmm.  Florida.  But I hate summer and Florida and don’t want to smell like it.  As the day went on, I came to like the scent.  It would actually smell really good…on a man.  Unfortunately, this scent had amazing staying power.  I can still smell it 13 hours later.  However, I discovered that it has been discontinued.  It’s easy to see why.