I feel like I’m floating in an abyss. I don’t mean that in some sort of tragic, depressing, emo way…just that Brother has turned out all the lights in the living room, so the only thing I can see now is the monitor and a little bit of the desk. If I glance away from the screen, it looks like there’s nothing there.
I watched the Les Miserables film—the 1998 one with Liam Neeson—and I hated it. I knew that I would before I even rented it; why did I bother? Well…I guess I just wanted to see Neeson and Rush, to see how they did…Claire Danes was a terrible Cosette—and where in the hell was Eponine!? Neeson and Rush were each fantastic in their respective roles, but…too much was changed from the book. I’m not talking about omitted—I don’t mind that so much, if it doesn’t change the story, and of course I knew they’d have to, because the movie was only twohours long…but actually changed; I hate that.
Although, based on the songs, and just from what I hear, I think I’ll like the musical. That’s next on my viewing list.
I wrote this a few days ago when my history teacher brought up the whole “nature vs. nurture” thing, and my mind started wandering. I never used to have a comment on this, because I couldn’t make up my mind; but in my psych class last year—and probably building up to that point, too—I reached a decision, which makes sense to me, and I don’t understand how I could ever not have felt this way. So here’s my staunch nurturist view on it.
I don’t believe that people are born inherently “good” or “bad”; I believe that they are born human, and that they are shaped by life as they live it. Nurture, not nature. I can remember my psychology professor discussing this last semester, presenting each opposing viewpoint. The nurture theory, he described, is about being born with a certain amount of “stuff” inside, and then making of that what you will as you go. I suppose that “stuff” would be what some consider the soul, wouldn’t it? I think that people, based on influences in their lives, are more inclined to act either good or bad, but that this is capable of change—always. Life is about free will, choices, and learning. It would seem, however, that once a person has leaned more to the good or the bad, that he would generally stay to that path from that point onward, unless faced with a dramatic, soul-changing event.
If one looks at plays, or novels, or films, and the people who stick in one’s mind the most as being the greatest, most lovable, most believable characters, those are the ones who are rounded out. This is how we describe those characters who are capable of changing their entire lives around…people who can change how they perceive everything. Jean Valjean does a major turnaround as a character in Les Miserables, and I adore him for this. The honorable Inspector Javert, on the other hand, I hated from the beginning. It wasn’t just because I knew that he would be stalking Valjean for the eternity that was 1,463 pages—it was because he was so flat. Of course, the character was written to be hated…but if he had no other qualities, I mean. In the end, of course, he changes…and this, for the first time, was when I looked at him with a new light. I felt far more respect for him in these last moments of humility than in his entire career—and, indeed, life—of piousness.
When I look at my own soul, who I am, I find that most evidence points to this nurture theory, that I certainly am shaped by my experiences, and that I am not the same person at this moment of my life as I was at various other instances throughout.
That was all I wrote before time ran out.
Oh, I have an updated perfume list again:
- Versace Bright Crystal
- Calvin Klein Euphoria
- Lancome La Vie Est Belle
- Jo Malone London Mimosa & Cardamom
- Michael Kors Sexy Amber
- Michael Kors 24K Brilliant Gold
- Michael Kors Glam Jasmine
- Marc Jacobs Decadence
- Marc Jacobs Daisy
- Marc Jacobs Daisy Dream
- Marc Jacobs Daisy Eau So Fresh
- Miss Dior Blooming Bouquet – When I closed my eyes and smelled this one for the first time, I had instant mental images of white tablecloths, crystal chandeliers, a tuxedoed live band, and the word “elegant”. Unfortunately, this scent does not appear to be available in an EDP and did not last very long. It lasted longer than either of the Ralph Lauren scents, however.
- Miss Dior Eau de Toilette
- Miss Dior Eau de Parfum
- Chanel Chance
- Chanel Coco Mademoiselle
- My Burberry
- Yves Saint Laurent Black Opium
- Elizabeth Arden Untold
- Elizabeth Arden Untold Absolu
- Modern Muse Le Rouge
- Vince Camuto Capri – I really liked this one. It was calming and lasted most of the day. It described itself as a “cool breeze off the Mediterranean Sea”, and I felt like I could visualize that when I smelled it.
- Thierry Mugler Alien – I thought I would like this one seeing as it was made up of pretty much all things I enjoy, but maybe I just didn’t like the way they went together? Something about it was too strong and off-putting, and the thought that crossed my mind was that it was just too “adult” for me somehow. Long-lasting, though. I won’t be trying it again, for sure.
- Thierry Mugler Alien – I couldn’t stand it. It wasn’t that it smelled bad, but it smelled like something sweet I would like to eat, like a cookie. I don’t want to smell like a cookie.
- Ralph Lauren Romance – I actually really liked the scent, but it only lasted for about an hour. Maybe the concentration was just too low? But whatever the problem was, I can’t choose as a signature scent something that I’m going to have to reapply several times throughout the day. That’s not simple enough for me.
- Ralph Lauren Midnight Romance – Not a fan. It was too sickeningly sweet and also only lasted around an hour (thank goodness).
- Jimmy Choo Illicit – Another one I liked but that didn’t last long enough for me to give it another shot.
- Victoria’s Secret Endless Love – I actually adore this scent. It smells absolutely enchanting right out of the bottle. But for some reason, it just doesn’t smell good on me. So I have to give it a pass.