Looking For Substance

I haven’t really had anything of substance to say in a few days.  I don’t have much substance to add today, either.  Let’s see….

Last night Milo waited up for me to come home so we could talk.  Actually, I think I very much like coming home and he’s here waiting for me.  I can’t help it, I know that sounds selfish, but…it’s very cool.

There’s also the fact that, considering he’s right outside my door when I go to sleep, he’s usually the last thing I think about before falling asleep, so dreams are great.

One thing that I haven’t mentioned to anyone…before he moved in, I’d been giving more serious thought to just telling him how I felt, ever since he was going to go back to Maine…I knew I was going to probably the night before he left, but since he decided to stay, I’ve just been thinking about telling him anyway.  I was explaining to Dustin why I was only going to tell him if he did move away, because I made myself promise a long time ago, and Dustin said, “He could die tomorrow in a car accident, and then you’d never have told him” and that made me think perhaps I should say something.  How can you never tell someone you’re in love with that you are?  But now that he’s living here, I’m not going to do it; it would be the absolute worst possible timing.

Not that this is the same thing, but I’ve only ever told Sister I love her a handful of times in my entire life.  She and I have an unspoken understanding.  Neither of us is comfortable saying it to the other in most cases, but we know.

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Author: GinnyJones

I was born on 3/5/97 in this horrible small town in southern Virginia. Now I live in Jacksonville, Florida and I am here to tell you about my life--my friends, my family, love, school, work, extra-curriculars--minus specifics, of course. What I Do: I'm in school full-time getting my AA. I used to work part-time as the secretary for a small property management business; now I work in a university cafeteria, which is a major improvement! It's harder work, but the people make up for it. Things I Like: Harrison Ford, Harry Potter, Doctor Who, Sherlock, Emmy Rossum, Shameless (US), Being Human (UK & US), The Walking Dead, Once Upon A Time, Superman, comic conventions, cosplay...I could go on. But I won't. Cast of Characters: - Mom and Dad: my parents - Sister/Psychobrat: my younger sister - Brother: my even younger brother - Cortney and Nicole: my best friends - Milo: the guy I love - Tinny: my work friend - Kristen: friend from school - Katie: friend from school - Jenna and Kara: sister friends - The Ex: Milo's evil ex

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